rebirth
home-
a place,
i not yet know.
a feeling,
a sight.
a force,
a might.
a sound,
a calling.
a rise,
a falling.
a death,
then rebirth,
an enchantment-
my forever,
curse.
full house
i can tell you -
that i am sorry,
but i am not.
i thought,
i loved you -
with all i got.
but, it wasn’t anything-
that could be bought.
not self-worth,
nor respect.
you really did,
stack the deck.
full house,
royal flush
anything you did-
made me blush.
but; you chose -
a mate,
a lush.
left me,
solo, alone,
going dutch.
but; you knew-
you were worth,
so much more.
beyond anything,
i could adorn.
now-its time;
to put that,
to rest.
its time,
for bed.
you were just,
a faded memory-
inside my head.
so, i hope-
you found,
what you,
were looking for.
cause this is me-
closing that door.
heartache
a longing-
before the break,
meant nothing was faked.
reminiscing of the time,
when love was still cupid’s-
stupid arrow.
before the sorrow,
before the pain,
turned into another’s-
gain.
back to the to the time-
when it was play.
not, being played.
before-
the lies,
the lust.
when-
it was truth,
and trust.
folding,
bluffing,
busting.
back to a time
when light-
still brought hope.
not yet another’s-
to gloat.
before the worst,
before this.
unbreakable-
curse.
my fate-
a buck,
short.
a day,
late.
growth,
through sorrow.
this beggar,
becoming.
the borrowed.
boths'-
mental health.
beaten-
like a belt.
whining-
crying.
forever-
(chris)
pining.
st. peter’s-
gate. locked,
my mistake-
or another’s.
bad faith.
despite-
this depression.
i don’t think-
i will,
ever-
learn my lesson.