rebirth

home-
a place,
i not yet know.
a feeling,
a sight.
a force,
a might.
a sound,
a calling.
a rise,
a falling.
a death,
then rebirth,
an enchantment-
my forever,
curse.

 

full house

i can tell you -

that i am sorry,

but i am not.

i thought,

i loved you -

with all i got.


but, it wasn’t anything-

that could be bought.

not self-worth,

nor respect.

you really did,

stack the deck.

full house,

royal flush

anything you did-

made me blush.


but; you chose -

a mate,

a lush.

left me,

solo, alone,

going dutch.


but; you knew-

you were worth,

so much more.

beyond anything,

i could adorn.


now-its time;

to put that,

to rest.

its time,

for bed.

you were just,

a faded memory-

inside my head.


so, i hope-

you found,

what you,

were looking for.

cause this is me-

closing that door.

 

heartache

a longing-

before the break,

meant nothing was faked.


reminiscing of the time,

when love was still cupid’s-

stupid arrow.


before the sorrow,

before the pain,

turned into another’s-

gain.


back to the to the time-

when it was play.

not, being played.


before-

the lies,

the lust.

when-

it was truth,

and trust.


folding,

bluffing,

busting.

back to a time

when light-

still brought hope.


not yet another’s-

to gloat.


before the worst,

before this.

unbreakable-

curse.


my fate-

a buck,

short.

a day,

late.


growth,

through sorrow.

this beggar,

becoming.

the borrowed.


boths'-

mental health.

beaten-

like a belt.


whining-

crying.

forever-

(chris)

pining.


st. peter’s-

gate. locked,

my mistake-

or another’s.

bad faith.


despite-

this depression.

i don’t think-

i will,

ever-

learn my lesson.